Reflections

Music and Lyrics by Judy Small Formerly Judge of the Federal Circuit Court of Australia

“We sit in the kitchen and chatter about you
My mother, my brothers, our lovers and me
And Mum wonders how she can go on without you
And I watch us all in the mirror
I know this old house like the back of my hand Dad
Though I haven’t been near it in 25 years
When I left at sixteen Mum could not understand Dad
Why I ran from the mirrors, reflections of you

I sit on my bed, feel the chill of your violence
I was seven years old when you shattered my trust
In the shadows you came and you swore me to silence
Then you showed me my face in the mirror
Oh the terrified child that I saw in the glass there
Has lived deep inside me for most of my life
I struggled for years to leave her in the past there
And I hated the mirrors, reflections of you

I lived with our secret for 34 years Dad
Just like you told me I said not a word 
Till one day I just couldn’t hold back the tears Dad
And the memories were there in the mirror
Oh the tears that I cried for that child deep inside me
As she screamed her betrayal and fury and pain
But with others who’ve faced their own demons to guide me
I shattered the mirror, reflections of you

So now I’ve come home in this hot dry December
You’re old and you’re dying, you can’t hurt me now
But I won’t let you think that I cannot remember
The pain and the fear and the mirror
So how does it feel to be looking at me Dad
To know I remember in every detail?
But I want you to know that this woman you see Dad
Can look without fear in the mirror
And you, can you look in the mirror?”

©️ 1992 Crafty Maid Music

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